it will all be worth it

i have been pondering how this blog post would come out since last friday when i received the news that lamba delta sigma had been cancelled for good, and that the organization was no more. i refrained from speaking out about it until i knew more, and until i had really gained an understanding, so here i am now...

for those of you who don't know. Lamba delta sigma is an LDS sorority organization that i have been a part of for the past 5 months. i joined hesitantly back in January after i finished student teaching in hopes of meeting new people, and as a means to find adventure. i was hesitant due to the fact that i had graduated and was not a student, and have never attended the U, and because the idea of a 'sorority' has always struck me as a bunch of catty girls up in every bodies business. well, little did i know, that this organization would become such a huge part of my life.

since i started in january, i have met some amazing girls. before i joined sigma, i didnt have very many friends in salt lake, and life was just so so. but the blessings have been numerous. these girls are amazing. they have become friends that i know will be forever friends. we have had countless adventures, an infinite amount of late night giggles, and even some silly drama that just ensures that we are real friends. being a part of this organization has made this the best year of my life. its amazing to belong to a sisterhood that is centered around the church.

in april i was called to be the sisterhood officer for sigma next school year. over the past 2 months i have been planning for the next year with the rest of the presidency. from rush week, to fall activities, to exchanges with the fraternities, and sweatshirt and t-shirt designs. until now. when we got cut off.

i will admit i have been really confused. maybe a little mad. and definitely really sad about this. hence, why i have refrained from posting until now. it makes sense. they want us to devote more of our time to the newly reorganized YSA wards, but its still hard to come to terms with. no more weekly sigma. no more rush carnival, no more fall barn dance or winter formal, which are all things i never got to participate in since i joined mid year.

but at the meeting on tuesday night, we were given a lot of reassurance and we left feeling at peace with the decision. the first presidency made this decision unanimously in the temple, so it is up to us to stand beside them and look at the positive. the priesthood leader of sigma shared this parable, which i found fitting.

its been a day

today was wonderful
wonderful indeed.
"started" my day off up till 3 am having much needed 'meaningful' conversation with my dear froomie Liz. boy can we talk for hours.
then slept for a few hours, and started the morning in the best possible way.
temple baptisms with miss katie jane

oh it was glorious.
and one thing that made me happy, was that i was baptised for a women named annie, who was born on july 26, 1879
yup thats my birthday...just 109 years prior
awesome.

 have i ever mentioned how i love flowers?

 the camera was accidently on zoom...it cracks me up though

 oh what a beautiful day it was!

 we tried to get the flowers in our picture...we failed due to a blindingly bright sun

 i sure do love this place

then we ventured over the JSMB for some scrumptious omelets
katie went to work,
i went to the gym
i went to dinner with my froomies
and then a most epic sorority night took place.
lots of laughs. lauren's engagement announcement and flower passing. (EEEEK CONGRATS!)
and then a most entertaining 'dating panel'
oh gotta love sigma!

 these are from tuesdays random crepe night...oh yes.

and now, i top the night off with a little saturdays warrior with liz.
no one understands how much i love this movie...
okay, maybe brittany does...
(my dad doesnt understand, he's the one that hid the movie from me for so many months when i was little. rude)
did i ever mention brittany and i went and saw it on stage, followed by the premier sequel to saturday's warrior, entitled "white star" oh yes. it was epic.
i wish i could share some of the songs with you, they were that great
i know one song had lyrics that went like this:

"open up the church let's have a party bring a casserole and hire a band
everybody dance and shout for joy and sing along
set another place at the table
dont forget to bring the lamb
hallelujah 
our brothers coming home"

obviously, some of the best lyrics ever...

and no for some ramblings...because thats what i do best
1. im literally addicted to smart water. i crave it. more than natural water...ahhh i need some now!
2. although, now that i think about it, i might just really like the bottles.... no its the actualy smart water the majority of the time
3. considering a facebook fast just to prove that i could do it...i have to ponder this though. i do have a slight addiction, maybe
4. yay for roadtrip springbreak next week!
5. being the 'unwanted' one is quite a strange feeling...not a huge fan, but i will get over it
6. i feel like i wasn't invited to sign up for the class flirty 1010. how come? i feel like that could b helping me significantly
7. it just occured to me that i have not mentioned my newest obsession. well, that obsession is most definitely this show. why yes, it does look cheesy ridiculous (but you should all know my now that those are my favorite) but honestly it is brilliants. serious, its MY kind of humor. and it is just grand. you should probably give it a try.
8. also this moment on 30 Rock was genius. pure genius.  
9.  if you have been a reader of my blog for some time, you may remember my tendency to get obsessed with american idol. notice anything different this year? ya, well thats 100% attributed to the fact that i just dont have cable...someday maybe. well the interesting part to this is that my MOTHER is the one that is obsessed. every week she tells me all about it, and its quite entertaining...so apparently you should vote for casey? thats what she says at least. if only i knew.
10. awkward story...i was at the gym today, in the locker room, and as im at the sink washing my hands, a girl walks out of the stall...with a pregnancy test in her hand. really? was that really the time and place? whatev!
11. today we literally experience all 4 seasons. woke up to spring, felt (and smelled) summer this afternoon, felt (and smelled) autumn around dinner time, and drove home from sigma in the snow. pardonne moi? 
12. they revealed some of the hungers games for the hunger games movie. WHAT?! i just dont know how i feel. gale is not supposed to be the pretty one. i hated GALE! and the kid whos playing peeta is only 18? i mean yes it fits with the book, but come one! sheesh. dont get me wrong, im still excited and cant wait to see it, but im just so unsure in this moment....


ten seemed like a fabulous place to stop. but you got twelve. whatevs. i gotta go to bed....
peace. love. and happiness friends!


p.s. wow this is long. oops. 

i hear the sound of the ticking of clocks

i love weekends. last weekend was clearly FABULOUS. i went to my amazing sorority retreat, and seriously had the best time! so glad i joined! best decision ever!

i also got to spend saturday with my 3 best friends! we have been trying for MONTHS and MONTHS to get the 4 of us together, and it finally happened! we went to lunch, did some shopping and had a glorious time catching up. i love them sooooo much!

this weekend i hung out with kym, saw an awesome movie, and we got cheesecake, which is always a good idea.

saturday, i went running with my new butt kicking shoes, and my latest splurge i was pretty much a happy camper. (ps those shoes really do work, my legs are killing me today!) also, i have been waiting a long time for that splurge. sad something as silly as an ipod could make me so happy! but now ALL of my music is on there and i dont have to choose favorites. now no one feels left out.

i also went on a sigma date on saturday. now i dont even remember the last date i went on...apparently im un-dateable or something.... well the boy reminded me of my brother ethan, so that will never go anywhere, but we did have so much fun! went to the jazz game and they won! and got frozen yogurt. happy! i seriously am so glad i joined sigma, can i say that enough?

oh, my point in telling you how i love weekends, is that i really do LOVE weekends. i always have weekends planned at least 10 days in advance in order to ensure they are awesome. pretty sure i have every weekend in march planned out already. these weekends include, but are not limited to: seeing 'hairspray' live , making a quick adventure to saint george, seeing 'drowsy chaperone' and best of all, seeing my newest favoritest obsession. oh im going to marry him.

now, do you believe me when i say i love weekends?

also, today im having a sunday adventure with some sigma girls, dont worry im sure you will hear all about it.

here are some other thoughts that i thought of:
i think its rude that everyone knows whether or not a girl teacher is married, but there is nothing to inform you if a male teacher is married or single! there is the use of 'Ms.' but 9 times out of 10 it just means the woman is divorced, and no one uses that anyways....it just doesnt seem fair to me...i mean its not like i need to know....er....uh....shoot....

i have been having major coldplay/muse obsessions lately. i cant even explain what that music does to me. love it.

can i just say how awesome it is to get paid? its quite nice. sucks it only happens once a month, but getting paid is getting paid. yes.

i just love finger nail polish. a lot. i am building quite the collection without even really realizing it...

spring is coming, and i LOVE it! birds chirping, no more snow, sunshine, blooming flowers, ahhhhh so happy.

sometimes its still weird to me that i am a real teacher. i haven't quite wrapped my head around it, but regardless...i LOVE it! i am seriously having so much fun, and my kids are fabulous!

life is good. and thats that!