boo

do you ever have those moments where you just feel forgotten?
like the world just keeps going, and you cant find a way to run after it?
sometimes life just gets the best of you.
sometimes i feel like i put 100% into everything,
and only get back 10%
if any at all.
i hate when i realize that i have been used.
when i think life couldn't get any better,
and then there comes the hand to slap me across the face.
im sick of trying.
for putting everything into a relationship or friendship,
and being completely un-appreciated.
and totally forgotten.

sometimes i wish i could just go home.
where i dont have to work for someone to tell me they care.
where i just know that every single one of my family members
would drop any and everything if i needed them to.
where i can walk through a door,
be in complete chaos,
and feel the most love the world has to give.
i have realized that someone i thought was a kindred spirit,
could probably care less if i got hit by a bus.
at least that's the vibe i get.
it kinda bites.


la vie d'amour et la vie vous aimeront en arrière
-whit sariah